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stilldancewithyou · 3 years ago

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heyy I've just read, well I actually have read a lot of your analysis about the summer I turned pretty and they are honestly so good, I'm in love with them. Anyway, I've just read the one about how Belly feels about sex and how it is played in the books and I must say you're so right about it, it is so necessary to show representation of this, I have always felt the same way as her about it, so it's really something to see this and and as you say it's so importnt to tell girls that it's okay to be like Belly (and as you say the media doesn't seem interested anymore in telling this experiences or when they do it's more treated as an embarassing thing or as you being a prude and a loser so yeah same thoughts as you on that matter) love your blog btw 🥰

aww thank you so much, you're too kind!

I'm so glad I'm not the only one who feels this way! One of the things about the show that I disliked the most was how it covered this topic but to be fair they didn't really cover it. First of all most of the girls besides Nicole are only 16! that's soo young. they're practically babies still.

The scene after the volleyball tournament, before the skinny dipping scene really annoyed me. I hated how every single girl made Belly feel so humiliated and awful about the fact that she had never done anything. It just felt kinda cringey to watch cause they could clearly tell she was uncomfortable and it made me feel secondhand embarrassment for her. At that point I was like these girls are bitch ass hoes! I don't like them anymore! the deb scene is for sheep! and then of course when they left them naked and alone out there in the dark it just confirmed that. I really appreciated that Taylor noticed how Belly was feeling and like stood up for her though. Idk the whole scene was just kinda weird to me. I know it was supposed to be reminiscent of the scene in the 3rd book when Belly is at college and she plays "never have I ever" with her college friends but I almost wished they had left it out. and then the fact that Belly's big car make out scene with Jeremiah happens almost directly after this also bothered me because I couldn't even enjoy the moment between them cause I was too busy cringing. like the fact that she's clearly feeling bad about being inexperienced and the girls made her feel like she needs to do stuff and now she's all over Jere...I couldn't properly enjoy it. I know those scenes happened in that order for a reason and all but I just...the way things happened there just had me:

I just hope in season 2/3 they show some open and honest conversations between her and both guys about it. Netflix fucked it up in TATBILB so I'm really hoping Jenny Han will let TSITP unfold the way the book does. And let's be honest. if belly fucks both brothers it will really not be a good look for her at all. And I really believe focusing on the emotional connections is what made the book so effective and is what made Belly and Conrad's dynamic so effective. Don't get me wrong, I love seeing the physical connection scenes too. But building up the emotional connection and anticipation and makes the physical parts hit sooo much better.

The representation is so important for young girls, to show Belly the way book Belly is, and how sex is such a big deal to her, and also to show her having healthy conversations with the boys about it too and how they understand how she feels and respect it! Young girls really need to see it. there wasn't even any of that when I was sixteen in shows. Idk why we have to be out here sexualizing 16 year olds all the time in this society but here we are.

#tsitp #tsitp spoilers #the summer i turned pretty #belly conklin #jeremiah fisher #conrad fisher #it's like 1 am and i'm pretty sure my thoughts have stopped making sense and this came out kinda aggressive lol

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orangecherryart · 6 years ago

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Do you have any headcannons for Jeremiah with an Ace S/O? I love your blog btw! Its soo good to see some code geass content!!!

Thank you very much! ❤❤❤ This ask has been calling out my name and it speaks to me ^3^

Jeremiah with an Ace S/O

You would most likely have to explain your sexuality to him. Once you do, Jeremiah is completely understanding and never oversteps his boundaries. He just wants to makes sure what you’re comfortable with

He’s never been the type of person that would force himself on you and he definitely doesn’t push you into something that you’re not comfortable with and he sure as hell hates people that are like that

Telling him that you’re asexual won’t make him see you any differently. He still loves you no matter what and no matter who you are

If someone as so much hates on your sexuality they better be ready to catch these hands as he’ll defend your honor like the gentleman he is

#code geass #Code Geass R2 #jeremiah gottwald #sfw #these sound so sweet #i hope i catered to your needs #Headcanon

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sag-dab-sar · 3 years ago

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Okay so what I found: Apparently there was a bad article but the article literally isn't written by her? Krasskova linked to her survey, which you cannot track down every single person who is linking to your blog. I've had it happen to me and when I catch it I block them, but I can't always catch them. I wouldn't want people discrediting me simply because I missed someone who reblogged me. So I thought "okay maybe its false internet hate?" I've discovered shes called "Dver" online btw.

Nope, its definitely true

She now has herself an avoid sign. I looked at my edition of the book— She references Sannion (aka H. Jeremiah Lewis aka PSVL) and links to his website as a resource in her book. People might scream "guilt by association is wrong" but this isn't one guy who did a few bad things or made mistakes online and apologized. No, this is someone who literally uses the Black Sun, claiming it has a lot of historical examples, yet still chooses the one designed by Heinrich Himmler instead of the supposed examples. He, like Krasskova, also wants polytheist theocracy. Edit: I also just looked at my copy of Komos another book by Winter (I've owned it but never read it) the forward was written by Sannion so that's even worse than just promoting him in the book's resource section.

One of the other main accusations is in 3rd edition she cites Krasskova and apparently supports indigenous cultural appropriation. That is not okay, especially the second one. I can't check that since I have the 2nd edition, but the 2nd edition is enough to put her on my avoid list anyways.

I'm so very disappointed. I honestly have a hard time wondering if I should use the book Anointed, because it has so many authors that submitted work, probably not knowing Sannion was among them; because it's an anthology. But Kharis & Komos aren't that, she is actively promoting him as a resource in her own publications and thus she knows his practice.

I can no longer support Sarah Kate Istra Winter and her books Kharis and Komos.

*****By the way if I'm ever using authors who may be dubious please let me know just like this anon did. I want to be able to vet any claims against them so I am not supporting things like this.

Edit: She just keeps getting worse the more I look so she'll have her own explanation spot on my resource page.

The author of Kharis is not a good source, friend of Krasskova for starters

Oh really? Damn, I'll have to definitely vet her more; thanks for pointing me in that direction. I'll be sure to check her out before posting content on that book.

#michibooks #well author

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luciana-galvez · 7 years ago

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GIRL, I WAS WATCHING THE FINALE AND I KEPT THINKING ABOUT THIS BLOG AND I WOULD LIKE TO HEAR YOUR THOUGHTS ABOUT THE FINALE.. That's if you've see it yet, of course. Sorry for all caps btw I'm just shook-

GIRL, I GET YOU. Also, you thought of me when you watched it? I love you, that is so cool!

And thanks for avoiding spoilers! (Even though I stayed away from Tumblr until after I had seen the episode, but still.) I’m in Europe so I actually only got to see it this morning, because it airs like 3am or 4am my time. I don’t really understand American TV schedules haha. :)

Anyway, under the cut you’ll find my two cents about the episode, because I feel like this is going to be a bit longer:

Speaking strictly from the perspective of an objective viewer, I really liked the episode. It wasn’t the strongest one of season three, but it made for a satisfying season finale imo, especially with the dam crashing at the end. Now, as an emotionally invested viewer that’s a whole other story but I will get to that in a minute.

The one thing I didn’t really understand is why Alicia gave up her lone wolf mission after two minutes and joined the thugs and just left her new friend like that? I mean I get that the writers needed a way for her to reunite with her family but I feel like that really undermined the moment two episodes ago where she took a stand and said she needed to be alone, which I really liked. Was there some kind of explanation that I missed for why she abandoned that plan right away?

Anyway, the elephant in the room: Troy. Man, I have very conflicting thoughts about this. On the one hand, if he had to die, I feel like the way they did it was beautifully done. If anyone had to do it, it had to be Madison. I’m pretty sure I would have been upset if anyone else had done it. There was this little moment after she hit him for the first time where he looks up at her and there’s this short moment of genuine surprise and disbelief on his face, a nanosecond of ‘how can you do this to me’, which really got me. Daniel Sharman played that beautifully. Just in general the conflict that they had was bound to happen and I thought it was very telling that she hit him right after he said ‘you understand. you understand and you see thing’ (something along those lines). Maybe I’m reading to much into this but as much as Nick and Troy shared the same self-destruction, Troy and Madison shared more than she would like to admit as well. Growing up with alcoholic parents, an abusive father. If you disregard the whole racist-parents-and-isolated-environment situation, I think Madison might also see a small glimpse of herself in Troy, of what she could have turned out to be if she wouldn’t have been able to get out of her situation by killing her father. Because after Jeremiah died we didn’t only see Troy upset, but also relieved (that whole ‘he was a drunk’ scene at his grave with Nick). And the moment Troy reminds Madison of how alike they are, of their shared ability to make the hard calls, she kills him. I just think story wise that was the best way to do it.

But that being said, obviously I had hoped that they would keep Troy alive. Listening to my morals it was hard to root for him when he brought up that the ‘Indians’ did not deserve the land, but as a viewer, I would have loved to see what the writers would do with his character in the next season. Troy was by no means the good guy, but no good TV show consists only of good guys. You need conflict, and having an arch for Troy next season (even if it’s not a redemption arch) would have definitely given the viewer interesting conflict. I feel like every single scene with Troy was interesting to watch, mostly because Daniel Sharman did such a wonderful job with the character (I’m actually convinced 80% of the sympathy for Troy stems from just how great Daniel Sharman plays him and how much charisma he brings to the role, at least that’s the case for me. I didn’t even know Sharman before, so I started season 3 hating Troy’s guts haha). I loved the dynamic between Madison and Troy, and I loved the dynamic between Troy and Nick even more. I feel like Nick and Troy understood each other in a way that Madison or Alicia would never be able to, just because they are so alike. And I feel like (that was also something they touched on in Talking Dead) Nick had been given so many chances every time he fucked up that he wanted to give Troy a chance too, you know? If he could manage to help Troy redeem himself, maybe he could be redeemed as well. Saving Troy and saving himself by proxy, basically. I think they could have both been good for each other, especially now that Troy was away from the ranch and the toxic environment there, so I’m mostly sad we don’t get to see that.

Also, writing for his character so much I also realized that I had become much more attached to him than I had expected, so even though I expected him to die I was surprisingly hard to watch. I just hope that with my stories I can turn him into someone worthy of a redemption arc.

Speaking of, what I really, really loved about season three was how well all the characters were written. Contrary to season two (or one even) there was so much ambiguity and morally gray areas. It’s the apocalypse, and I love how they don’t have clear bad guys (except Jeremiah, he can choke) and good guys, because that’s just not how an apocalypse works. As opposed to TWD where you have the Governor and Negan who are the all time evil villains, season three gave us Walker, who we thought was the bad guy and then turned out to be the one in the right. And Madison, who is arguably the main protagonist and the ‘good guy’ of the show manipulates and kills and does things that would technically define her as the bad guy. I absolutely loved that because it was so much more interesting to watch. If you’re in the apocalypse, who’s to say who is the bad guy and who is the good guy? Everyone is just trying to stay alive, and I think FTWD has portrayed that amazingly this season.

I also really like Madison. I know there is a lot of hate for her going around, but I just think her character is so interesting. I loved her development from season 1 to now, and for me it’s so refreshing to see a female lead that is not portrayed as the lovey-dovey good guy, but as a survivor who can make hard calls but who we still get to see soft moments with (how much she loves/protects her children, even though I think we can all agree it’s clear who’s her favorite lmao). That scene with Nick after she had killed Troy was amazing and so definitive for both of their characters. When Nick questioned/stated that she would put even him down if she had to. What an amazing moment. And again, it also made me wish Troy would still be around, because just as much as Nick loves his mother and feels he owes her, you can tell how hard it is for him to be around her for long periods of time. With Troy he seemed almost at ease, like he could be himself without having to pretend to be strong and responsible all of the time (like he feels he owes Madison).

Anyway, I have rambled on for quite a while now, so I’ll stop. Thank you for asking! I would love to hear what you thought of the episode as well, none of my friends watch FTWD so it’d be nice to discuss it with someone! :)

#turns out i have a lot of thoughts haha #please no hate mail people #inbox love

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wishingfornever · 6 years ago

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10/11/17 – No Contact: Meta Entry

I had a series of dreams. The last dream, you were here and we just laid together. I kissed the back of your neck and you were happy. Then I woke up and find I had been cuddling with Max the WHOLE TIME!!! GASP!!!

Kidding, but that was the last dream. You had a black tank top, black underwear, and that red beanie. I remember… a lot from that dream. I’m waiting to propose to you to carry on and continue your life. As I said, your mom told me to look after you and I still intend to. Of course, you don’t deserve it. Your behavior was just… incredibly bad. And then you justified the stupidest things. You don’t deserve forgiveness. You don’t deserve a second chance.

You’re lucky I’m not you.

Maybe I’m being harsh. Maybe I’m telling myself this so I can wait the full two months to message you again. Or maybe I’m totally justified. You really fucked up. You’ll see that eventually but I can’t make you see it. Thus, this is a lesson you’ll have to learn yourself.

I hope you don’t view my offer as a safety net. Like, seriously, if I’m trying to be nice then don’t overthink it. I suspect you’ll avoid my offer, though. Maybe that’s why. Not enough pressure. What a bunch of bullshit.

My one concern is that I stop caring about you before I offer you a place. Sort of like how you stopped caring. See? Like that. You REALLY don’t deserve a second chance. If I were a wiser man, I’d have left you for dead. You’d be stuck with Dennis or move back. Worse yet, you’d move from man to man trying to find a place for yourself, constantly getting high and NEVER getting your GED. Your life will stagnate. I guarantee it will with Dennis or any other prick on the internet who says he “Totally cares, for sure.” Your two best options will be with me or with your mom. Because unlike those other internet tools, I won’t let you get high. I’m sick of it. Pot is fucking stupid and you’re stupid for liking pot.

You’re getting your fucking GED. If you’re here, I will MAKE you get it. That is not an option. That said… you don’t need to choose me. You can choose your parents. I’m sure they’d be THRILLED to have you back. Well, your mom at least. Thing is, it’s your mom. She has two sides. Not saying she’s a bad person, but she’s a hard person. I know because she’s somewhat like my dad, just my dad is less hippie-ish.

Whatever… Anyways, Max isn’t eating his food. That’s a problem. He’s… been grumpy. I told you I applied for a job at Starbucks. Here’s the thing. I wanted to go to Starbucks and apply in person. But… I can’t. Because Max has been very temperamental. Like, so much. So, I’m sticking by with him. We could use someone who will stay here with him. Like you. That’d be super helpful.

Anyways, I just checked with my application in Starbucks. Turns out to… have not saved. So, I re did it. Not that hard. But as of today? I officially applied for a job. After this week, I’ll start applying at other places. Hopefully in person.

Holy crap. I know how to propose. Custom banner. In NationStates. It’ll say, “Esther’s Nation, will you marry me?” and have one of the letters replaced with a hammer and sickle. Or put the hammer and sickle in a heart. Gasp. :o

Cringe now. I know. We won’t get together because of reasons. Probably because you don’t want to see me again. That’s why I wrote it here. Because you’re not going to read it. It’s funny though. Clever. I mean, not romantic. But the region will think it’s cute. :D

Whatever. If we do get together again, I’ll have to try to delete this. Or maybe I won’t, idk. Kind of ruins the authenticity of the journal to go back and delete things… so… whatever.

I need Max. This cute Asian gal ran up and said, “Awwwww! What’s his name!” I was awkward at the time because I didn’t expect it. I said “Max. Be careful, he’s grumpy.” But she was super cheerful. Was getting out of her car at the time.

I might be a bit socially awkward. I have to be in control of the situation to prevent it and I have to be super confident in myself. I put on some pounds and I did almost nothing to my hair. I mean… I brushed it. Kinda looks cute. But could be better. Breath smells of onions. Intending to shower when I got back. Just… not a good situation for me. She didn’t get close enough for that. Was cute though.

Shane isn’t doing well. He said he coughed up blood. Concerning. Told him to see a doctor. I hope he’s fine.

Meanwhile, Walter (who ADORES NationStates) wants to do a NationState scenario with me. Like a space race. I think it’d be super cool. We’re doing some planning. Won’t need that much time. I won’t have to much time to begin with. I’ll be working at Starbucks soon. And, of course, my book. Which I haven’t touched for a while. I’ll make time for it this week. I’m waking up earlier, if you can believe it.

I’ve been sleeping in, unfortunately. But I’m getting over it. I didn’t do my sets yesterday. I didn’t run, either. Didn’t today. Been focusing on Max. He just wants to walk, so we’re just walking. Super inactive. Eh. :/

I want to message you. I always do when I write in the journal. I think because I want responses for somethings. Or at least input. Idk. It’ll fade. Eventually, I’ll stop writing in this journal. That’ll either be a good thing or a bad thing. Either it’s a bad thing because that means I stopped caring and have totally given up on you or that we’re back together and there is no need for the journal. I guess having a journal at all is pretty desperate. I mean… why? This journal is more about us than it is about me. If I keep it… idk. The posts won’t be as long. I don’t know what I’d put in there… or why.

Why did I begin this one? It’s helped me deal with the end of our relationship. It also documents what’s been happening for us. But… eh. It’s the truth. Maybe that’s a bad thing. The truth often isn’t welcome. Maybe I’ll upload it to a blog next year. For giggles. I’ll send you a link to it then. On 9/3/18. Wouldn’t that be fun, eh? Idk. Just an idea. This would make it in there too. It’ll be weird to see me bitching about the format. And converting it would be a pain in my ass. Oh, I’ll make it a Tumblr thing. Set it to public. Not to slut shame you or to shit on Dennis or anything. I just think it’d be good to document. Might be a fun read, idk. ;) Anyways, Adela just came back. I spoke with her. Couldn’t get the scale to work. Earlier today I was in such a good mood, I could have sworn I lost weight. I little bit later, I felt super self-conscious and I felt like I gained weight. I need a scale to measure everything. That way, I won’t get complacent and I won’t have to guess. I could lose 40 pounds and I wouldn’t notice. Though, I think I’d notice gaining 40 pounds at this point. I’ll be honest. Thing is, I didn’t realize I lost weight when I lost 10 pounds. So… weird. I guess it’s easier to see my failures than successes. Hrm…

Whatever.

I’m thinking about when I publicize this all. You probably won’t like it. You’ll probably ask me to take down or not do it at all. Or if you read this, you might ask me to do it. I guess it depends on how I end this journal. We’ll see. It’d only be surprising to people who we don’t know if this is posted. You’ll know how it ends and anyone who knows us will know how it’ll end. And people will be surprised to know I came up with these bullshit titles before I even thought about posting any of this.

No names will be changed. So, if you don’t like it, maybe you can sue. So even if you hate me, you can still have a happy ending. ;) This would be A LOT of honesty. To just put out there. It’ll be nice to have total strangers think I’m crazy too. Ah, well. Shane might have died. He stopped responding to me. So has Walter, actually.

Btw, I told Randy everything. I think I mentioned that. Might not have. Regardless, he responded. Was very nice to me. Kind of sympathetic. It was nice. I had to reiterate that I had nothing against you or Dennis. Though, I guess you’d disagree after reading all of this.

If not against Dennis, then against you. Saying you don’t deserve a second chance. I stand by my words; you really don’t. And Dennis is still a piece of shit. Thing is, I don’t have to like someone to not have a grudge. I don’t have a grudge against Dennis. No vendetta needing fulfilling. And, obviously, no vendetta against you. Rather, you piss me off and Dennis is dead to me. He’s a slimebag piece of shit that literally EVERYONE can see but you. You think he’s awesome, but that’s because he’s a terrible person. You have only his word to take on it. He doesn’t talk to Shane or Jeremiah anymore for a reason. He brought this on himself. Everyone who used to associate with him stopped talking to him. Walter joked about how he didn’t recognize Dennis’s name.

Gotta give him credit, though. At least he’s dedicated to fucking up and cutting contact with everyone he’s ever called friend. If I had known that’s all that it takes to win your heart, I’m sure I wouldn’t be writing this journal. Sorry, but Jer and I have a relationship that you wouldn’t understand. In High School, it was compared to Turk and JD from Scrubs by our friends. The ultimate bromance. Apparently the actors who play them are best friends in real life. That’s interesting. I wonder which one of us was Turk and which one was JD. I haven’t seen much of the show to make a comparison.

Speaking of Jer, he REALLY wants me to download League of Legends. I… probably won’t. Because of reasons. Mostly that I won’t have time for video games between a job, my book, and learning Spanish. I haven’t begun yet but… soon. Measuring life by the week. ;)

Anyways, I’m tired. Also hungry. Going to get food and watch dumb videos. I mean, I could work on my book, but nah. I’m a terrible person with a shitty work ethic. Don’t tell Starbucks, though. ;)

Before I go and begin the next entry… it would appear I’m rather macabre. I was watching JonTron’s old review for a dorky game, I was thinking his bird was going to die soon. I don’t know why I would think that. Birds have a lengthy life, for one… and for two, WHO THE FUCK THINKS ABOUT WHEN SOMEONE LOSES THEIR ANIMALS?!? Ugh… I know it’ll suck to lose a pet. Thing is, I ask this to myself a lot with people’s pets.

Jack died when I came back from Texas the first time. I had to bury him. It sucked. Then there were other pets I had to bury, but he was the most recent. It was… depressing. He went into an old dog house outside and just slept in there the night he died. He was old. Oof… I’m done talking about Jack. Later. x.x

#breakup #slice of life #frustration #depression #getting over it #moving on #journal #a year ago today

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